When the crazy person is you...

I can admit it...I used to have anger issues. Still do to an extent. Only, they are much less volatile and no longer result in somebody getting punched in the face. (And yes...more often than not, that person was usually me.) The thing is, I took some very serious looks at myself. Some of it was kind of embarrassing. Funny how the mind can twist reality.

Many people go through life on a rampage. They are constantly in some form of turmoil...usually at the receiving end of some wrong or another. Or at least that is how they see it. But here is a little something to consider (and when I did this...it was a real punch in the gut)...if drama swirls around you like an F5 tornado...

MAYBE THE PROBLEM IS YOU!

It is a very hard thing for many of us to see that we are often the instruments of our own destruction. A few things to consider...

1. If you are always right...then you are probably SO wrong.
2. If people keep leaving...YOU are probably driving them away.
3. If you don't NEED anybody...you are probably lying to yourself.
4. If you never ask for HELP...you are certain not to get any.

One of the most common and easiest walls that we put up (I say we because I know I am not the only person to have dealt with or is currently dealing with this issue) is a victim stance. It is so much easier to be right when EVERYBODY in the world has it out for you. If you are constantly a "victim" of some perceived wrong or slight...then you need to see where your own culpability lies.

I say all of this for a reason. This is the holiday season. For many, it is the worst time of the year. Suicide rates go through the roof because all of those individuals living safely behind the walls that they have constructed suddenly feel the sting of loneliness. The realization that all of their relations are superficial at best becomes a new reason to feel miserable. "Why doesn't anybody like me?" swirls around in the brain until they commit the ultimate act of selfishness: suicide.

The hardest part of breaking out of this cycle is coming to the realization that SOMETIMES you are wrong. Trust me, from personal experience that led to three divorces and a lot of hangovers, that first step is a leap of faith. And the road will be a hard one. However, there is a reward at the end far greater than anything you have ever experienced:

Love and Life.